February 2012
43 posts
At this moment TODAY, my "To John..." blog has had...
Shadow Days!!!!!!!!!! *SQUEEEEEEE*!!!!
Mia Loves John // Please Don't Forget Me →
Oh. I’m lonely and it’s nice to have new followers, but…
*tries to figure out a way to tell you I’m “that crazy girl”*
The girl who writes John desperate love letters.
(I decided to simply send you a link to one of my letters.)
If you want to unfollow me, please don’t feel bad doing that.
If not, the… WELCOME!!!!!
My name is Mia.
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“That was even BETTER than I expected…
…and I expected it to be the...”
– Mia’s objective and even-tempered review of ‘Shadow Days’ by John Mayer after hearing it for the first time this morning.
OMG! OMG! OMG! Oh, Oh, Oh, ooOOoh. OOooH....
-Me
Direct quote.
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OMG! Over 1,000 more people visited my "ToJohn..."...
Shadow Days. Shadow Days. Shadow Days!!!!!!!
No. > This WHOLE ALBUM is going t0-, oh. JUST. OH. *is sooooooooo giddy*
John Mayer (LIVE!) will premiere his song ‘Shadow Days’ (the 1st single off his soon to be released album ‘Born and Raised’) tomorrow morning!
From the 60 seconds I’ve heard so far, it’s a beautiful song that somehow manages to both break...
LOL!!! I have checked to make sure my radio is...
I love John soooOOOOoooo MUCH.
*waits for you to recover from the shock*
John the MAN.
I do love John’s music, more than I’ve ever loved a musician’s music before, but I am rarely in the mood to torture myself by actually LISTENING to it.
My exceptions to this ban are: anything I’ve never heard and new music.
So. OMG. DAMN. SHIT. F*CK.
All this early (baby) sweet, yummy, John music making the...
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I can feel my soul trying to reach out and tell me...
I can feel its message lingering just outside my conscious.
Now it’s up to me to quiet the noises of my heart and mind, be still, and listen.
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“I’m living and dying my every dream.
For you, my love, your peace of...”
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“There is no gesture more devastating than the back turning away.”
– Rachel Simmons
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“*needs her cowboy*”
To The Sweet Kind Loving Cute And Funny Girl Who...
I couldn’t get your ask to work and didn’t want to wait a single minute to tell you I am VERY GLAD that you’re still HERE.
The world needs more people like you and so does Tumblr.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO,
Mia
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“Endless scrolling is definitely not a goal oriented person’s friend.”
– This post is relevant.
Signs Of Life
*lengthy, disgruntled groan*
I gave up my nightly ritualistic eating of the sinfestionally
delicious bagel slathered in butter and peanut butter back in October.
I decided I wanted to lose five pounds last week.
And now today…. I WORKED OUT.
I have not worked out since I decided to kill myself (in August).
I mean, you know, why bother keeping my body toned if I’m…
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“How do you focus on gaining and sustaining a positive mental attitude while at...”
THAT draws the ABOVE question into my head...
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“I used to believe the world was filled up with mostly good people and I want to...”
“I think I want to believe there are people out there who sincerely care about...”
“My head is screwed on upside down and sideways today.
SO. Unless John does...”
– Mia
The Me I See
The image of myself that reflects back at me when I think of myself lately,
is that of a grotesque monster.
Something bizarre, frightening and demented.
I have never spoken more honest, from the deepest part of my heart, words than I’ve written here.
This is who I am. I am who you see.
A crazy freak, who’s probably dangerous, who falls in love with random celebrities for no...
“cuckoo. cuckoo. cuckoo. It’s melodic. Like a song. That gets stuck in your...”
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Tonight...
I miss John. I wrote him a note and cried.
On the upside, my eye. Feels better now.
I am eating ‘frosted mini-wheats’ one by one, dipped in milk.
I miss John.
“Sometimes nothing happens and that changes everything.”
Today...
I cried.
Then I accidentally poked myself in the eye. That was hours ago, but DAMN it still hurts.
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Candyland
“He knows how much I love him.”
“He would not leave me stone cold like that.” “He’d say something, he’d make sure I was okay.”
He didn’t.
(Honestly, that part. I still have not quite figured.)
He didn’t know how much I loved him?
A— once asked me if I lived in candyland.
Later she apologized.
But.
Thing is. I kinda do.
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Ache
My heart aches.
Aches every day. Nothing I do will soothe it
It is a physical ache.
A wound that’s overtaken the center of my chest.
Too deep within my body to reach.
Often it hurts so badly I can’t think.
Always I am trying not to visually wince.
My heart aches.
Aches every day.
January 2012
29 posts
Help.
Wishing with all my strength. HOPE.
Staring at my computer screen harder. NEED.
Sleeping so I can’t feel the hurt. DESPAIR.
Medicated walking zombie, still my heart crys. PAIN.
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“Hurt, helplessness, frustration, pain, anger, rage and HATE are merciless,...”
dying.
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